How do you expect someone to know what you want when you can't tell for yourself what your own heart desires? Sometimes it bothers me that even up to this point, I can still manage to surprise myself about certain things. It pisses me. I am always a sure-ball thinker. I don't like to test the waters. I don't like dipping my feet. Either I get all wet or stay dry. That's it. That's all. Nothing more.
Yet, I find myself limbo rocking like everyone else. I find myself toying with impossible ideas...asking myself the "what if" questions that can drive you into pure madness. Sometimes I hate my past. It messes my present and distorts my future. So I can't really afford mistakes. I just can't.
Why is perfection such an impossible demand? Forget about being human. Why can't we take the high road and be a man? Why??? Why do we have to beat around the bush? Play the game? Pretend? Prolong??? Why can't we just cut ties and move on? Why do we have to resort to DRAMA? I hate drama. Yet my life seems to breathe it. Aghhhhhhhh!
All I want to do is pick up that phone and make the call. But I can't.
People think I am so strong.
It is a mistake I don't mind people thinking.
About Me
- noelle perez
- It's been ages since I've done this ---Blogging. My PR Writing professor encouraged me to blog again. He insists that practice makes perfect. I hope he is right...I just need to get my groove back. Find my focus. As my husband always says, "BE INSPIRED."
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