Nov 27, 2006

i will be back...

There is no end to the wonders of your heart. Sometimes it can go so far. Sometimes it endures so little...If I can only figure out how mine works, then maybe, the "figuring" becomes less difficult, and the assurance becomes more lasting. It has come to a point where I no longer long for reasoning. I am no longer in search for answers. Certain things are just beyond my comprehension, and no amount of wording or rephrasing, or explaining can get me to the bottom of it. No matter how hard you try- there are those moments when you'll just have to remain afloat, because diving in too deep might just...just might...drown you.

We don't always have to know the reason why. Things will happen. Things shall come to pass. Like...accidental encounters or accidental falling out. People finding jobs, people losing jobs. Families getting bigger, families falling apart. There will be those who will win the lottery, and those never making it home. Those who will top the bar, and those who will fail three times. Those who will find the love of their lives, and those who will always be in search. Those who will be born, and those who will die. Those who can sing, and those who were made never to open their eyes.

Who's who? And why???

Who gets to live and who gets to die? Who gets to dance on stage and who gets to lose a limb? Who gets his heart broken and who gets his pieced up clean? Who gets to die in Iraq and who gets to come home? Whose family will get to celebrate Christmas at home??? Who gets to work in Paris and who gets to make copies all day? Who will be stuck in traffic and who will get to fly away? Who will you pick? The girl you just met or the girl you've known all along? Who will be remembered? Who will be forgotten? Who will be loved???

There are ten thousand reasons. Sometimes there is none.

Things happen. Things are. Things change. And although there are moments when we want so desperately to stand still in time and prolong our joys, we can't. In as much as we can't fast forward our pain and moments of grief.

The beef of the matter is how we cope.

How do we deal....after the hit?